Wow!

That's the only word I can think of to describe just how dramatically changed my life is. I'm going to backtrack for a second but it will make since. When I was a freshman at Oklahoma Christian, I babysat my 2 months old nephew, Ty. He was such a hard baby and that is a complete and total understatement. He was so hard that when I left Oklahoma I told Jen that she needed to quit because she could not leave Ty with anyone that wasn't family because I was afraid that would get too frustrated and potentially hurt him... pretty bad huh?!?! Well, when I was pregnant I constantly worried about having TWO "Ty's". I remembered how hard it was with him and was so nervous I would have two... at the same time. I'm saying all this to say, I think I have two "Ty's". They have been so hard the last week or two. I hate to complain because I have two beautiful, healthy baby girls. They are so amazing and I love just staring at them. But goodness, I'm not completely sure God chose the right girl for this job! LOL. Well, that is enough of that. 

On a brighter note, my girls are 10 weeks old! I cannot believe it. We have been away from the hospital for 6 weeks now. Time really does fly. At their 2 month check-up, Ansley was 7 lbs 5 ounces and 20 inches long. Kinley was 6 lbs 11 ounces and 19 inches long. It's hard to believe that just 10 weeks ago they were born at 3 lbs 3 ounces and 3 lbs 5 ounces. Little miss Kinley even got down to 2 lbs 10 ounces. They are growing so fast!! They have grown out of Preemie sleepers but Newborn ones are too big. Most of their Preemie outfits still fit but we are starting to put them in Newborn stuff. It's still a little too big though. 

I think I'm going to try and start making bows. That way I can have a little hobby of my own and hopefully save some money while I'm at it. If you have any tips or ideas send them my way and hopefully I will have a post on that soon.

I know I say it every time but I really am going to try and post more... life has been just a little crazy though. I will leave you with 2 month pics!

Ansley Grace

Kinley Kate

My girls!

I just wanted to say a few things about my girls so that I can look back at this time and remember. Kinley makes the sweetest little noises all the time. It seems as if she is talking to herself. Ansley has become so good at being awake. In the NICU she would act as if it was just so hard to open her eyes. Now she opens them so big and she will stay awake for a while. She also sleeps so well! When she is out, man she is out! Kinley on the other-hand is quite touchy. She wakes up very easy and is very fussy when she wakes up. They both make the funniest faces when they are asleep. You can see every emotion on their faces in just a 10 minute period. I'm afraid we are in over our heads!!

Deliriously happy!

I love being a mom. I love holding, feeding, loving on, and soothing them. They are why I am so happy. They are also the factors that make me delirious. I still don't have them figured out. I do not know what to expect from day to day or even hour to hour. I am looking forward to learning all their quirks and cannot wait to see their little personalities shine through. That's all for now!

Life at home!

Ok... I really am going to try and blog at least once a week from now on. Life has just been beyond crazy the last few months and when I did have time to blog, I would have rather done NOTHING! I know I said I would catch everyone up on the girls' NICU time but I'm going to skip that. They were in the NICU one day short of 4 weeks which is so good! They say to expect them to come home on the due date and they came home a month before that!! We have now been home for 1 week and it has been so fun and challenging. It is so nice to have them to ourselves. We get to do things how we want and when we want. Don't get me wrong... I appreciate the nurses and know they were just doing their job but I got a little sick of them telling me when I could hold MY babies! We have already had to go to the Dr. (outside of weight checks) because Ansley was spitting up after every feeding. Ansley hadn't gained any weight since our weight check so they weighed Kinley. She only gained 1 ounce. That really upset me because I want to feel like they are thriving at our home. Instead I felt like we took them from the NICU too soon. We then were sent to the hospital (don't they know we have had enough of that place?) to get an ultrasound on her belly. Everything looked fine and she was put on medicine for reflux. She has been doing so much better. We had to change to bottle feeding every time except twice a day and we have another weight check tomorrow. Hopefully they will have gained at least 3 oz. Also, while we are at the Dr., he will check Kinley's belly. She is the one that had that scare in the NICU because her belly was getting so big and low and behold it is pretty huge again. So, prayers that miss Kinley will be fine. Now I will leave you with their one month pics!!!

Ansley Grace

Kinley Kate

So much to blog about!!

I am so sorry I stink at blogging! It has been so crazy around here I barely have time to think, much less blog!! So I am going to try and write as much as I can today but it will probably be a few blogs before I catch up! 

On Thursday March 12th, I woke up with some extreme back pain. I only really noticed it when I stood up so I didn't think anything of it. Meredith came and picked me up that morning to take me to my Dr.'s appointment. When I got there I started noticing some cramps. They weren't regular so I disregarded those as well. Let's just say it's a good thing I had a Dr.'s appointment. When the Dr. checked me I had dilated to a 2 so he put me on the monitors. I started to have noticeable contractions every 2 minutes. So the Dr. sent me to the hospital to see if the contractions were causing me to dilate even more. Once I got there I was on the monitor for a hour, started having contractions every 45 seconds, and went from a 2 to a 3. They checked me into labor and delivery and waited until I was dilated to a 5 to take me back to the operating room. All of this started at around 11:30 and we had babies at 7:26 and 7:28. Kinley Kate was 3 lbs 5 ounces and 15 3/4 inches. Ansley Grace was 3 lbs 3.5 ounces and 16 3/4 inches. What a GREAT day!!! I will talk about their NICU stay in blogs to come.  

World's Worst Blogger!

So I'm sorry that I'm an awful blogger. You would think with all my time I would blog multiple times a day! I really was going to post last week but I wanted to post a video and I couldn't figure out how to get them from my camera to my computer! Well, I figured it out this morning.

We are now at 29 weeks but 28 weeks was our big milestone. If we make it to 30 that has been my ultimate goal. I know you probably think it should be full term but I'm just trying to realistic. Everyone is stunned that we've made it this far! Our last sonogram has shown that Kinley's water is at risk to break, I'm 100% effaced, and dilated to a 2 or 3. Still no contractions though... who knows! I have been in the hospital for 3o days now. WoW! I really am going completely crazy. I'm so ready to clean up after myself, walk wherever I want, go to dinner with my husband, run my own errands, and so much more. I won't get to go home when I get out of here because the girls will be in the hospital here until at least April sometime. I know my normal isn't going to be the same anymore but I'm so ready for that new normal with my family living at our home and not a hospital. Anyway, I'll try to update more frequently. I would put a video up of our new home before we moved in but it's taking forever for the first video to post. Until next time.

*** Sorry the video won't load. Maybe next time

So I have been in the hospital for 2 1/2 weeks! I am beyond excited/relieved that my girls are still tucked away safely in my tummy but AAAHHH!!! I feel like I'm going crazy. I just need to keep repeating, "I think I can. I think I can." I will be 28 weeks on Sunday and that is such a milestone and when I have 2 beautiful, healthy girls I know I will never think twice about my stay in the hospital.

Throughout this whole thing, the fact that Jason and I have the best friends and family has just been reiterated over and over again. We have had so many visitors. I'm actually going to do my best to name them all so that I will have documentation of it. So far we have had... My mom & dad, his mom & dad, Jamie, Geoff, Jana, Justin, Jen, Josh, Ty, Bryce, Lainey, Tim, Melaina, Randall, Celice, Granny, Granddad, Meredith, Makayla, Mitzi, Margaret, Michael, Kara, 4 0f my co-workers (Elizabeth, Megan, Adam, & Anne), my boss (Michael), Russ, Susan, Chris, Jim, the parents of Marla Myers (from our church in Abilene),  Vicki, Mark, Jane, Sarah, Brittney, Kevin, Susan, Kayla, Kristen, Aunt Debbie, Aunt Carla, Aunt Nina, Aunt Beverley, Amanda, Amanda, Stephanie, Mallory, Sharla, Blake, Anna, Keith, Cynthia, Steven, Britini, Faith, Shanda, Jimma, Barbara, Karen, Caleb, Jennie, Reese, & Aubrie. I really hope I have remembered everyone and I'm sorry I put you through that! But it does make me feel better to have it down somewhere. ANYWAY... the point is we are obviously blessed!

I am even more blessed than Jason though. He is the most AMAZING husband. This has definitely been one of the first big, life-changing things that has happened to him and we were totally taken off guard. Imagine hearing the words, "If they are born, they won't survive." or "There is a high-risk of brain hemorrhaging that could cause cerebral palsy or life-long seizure disorders." We have never been so scared and there is no one other than Jason that I could do this with. He has been so incredibly supportive and strong. I can just look at him and feel just a little bit better every time! As most of you know, we had moved into a new house the day before I was admitted and he has spent all of his free time in Abilene getting it together. He has even decorated a lot of it for me and tonight he spent his time painting our girls' room and putting up trim. He is soooo great!! He is spending Sunday-Wednesday in Abilene going into work early and leaving late and then travels to Fort Worth to stay on an uncomfortable couch next to me in the hospital. I am so grateful that God gave him to me and I love him more than I could ever imagine.

We are both just ready for this all to be over and for our lives to go back to normal. Even though, our normal will never be the same. We are just ready to live in the same house with our beautiful girls. Please continue all of your prayers and know that we are so thankful for that and you. Hopefully, I'll post sooner next time! Until then, I'll just be laying in bed at the hopsital!

Just a bad week

I'm sorry I haven't updated this. I know people have been checking but I just didn't want to update until I felt more confident in the information I had. 

We had a Dr.'s appointment on Thursday with Dr. Maberry. Everything looked great with mom and babies. Then on Monday (4 days later) we had an appointment with Dr. Mascorro and my cervix had almost completely thinned out (it's less than 1 cm). She admitted me to Hendrick right away for observation. On Tuesday, I had no changes. Dr. Mascorro had been in contact with the Dr.'s at Harris Methodist in Fort Worth and they decided to give me a fetal fiber nectin test on Wednesday. This is a fairly inconclusive test but the Dr.'s decided if it came back positive then I would be transported to Harris Methodist to await the arrival of the babies. It was positive. I am now 25 weeks and 5 days. We are trying to make it to 28 weeks to give the girls the girls the best chance possible to not have any long term issues. The good news is that every Dr. that has seen the girls tells us how big and strong they are. They have faith that even if they were born sooner that they would still do fairly well. 

Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers.

Belly pics and housing update

Well, I'm getting pretty huge! These are pictures of me at 24 weeks. We are only 13 weeks away from the schedule induction. That just sounds CRAZY! This weekend I bought 2 cribs and 1 changing table. We still need 1 mattress but hey we're getting there. We found a house and are moving in on Saturday! I am so excited and can't wait to get the girls' room set-up. The house we chose is the one we went to look at during our lunch break. We fell in love with it in seconds. It's a 3 bedroom 1 bath with a great laundry room and a closed in patio that will be great for storage. We will have a front yard!! It's the little things. 

Less than 100 days!

We are only 97 days away from our schedule induction! I cannot believe how fast everything is going. We saw the girls yesterday and they looked perfect! The Dr. commented on how much they were moving around and said they were going to be strong. I have been having this awful pain in my left ribs for the last few weeks so I asked Dr. Mascorro if there was a body part up there! Sure enough... Baby B's (which I'm pretty sure will be Ansley Grace) knee is lodged up there. As she showed us that we saw Ansley's little foot. It is the sweetest little foot... or so we thought. As we were admiring it she kicked Baby A (Kinley) right in the head! You could see little Kinley's head just shaking back and forth. Is it bad that I found this pretty funny? I better get prepared though,  it looks like we might have a little trouble maker on our hands. Well, we will go to the high risk doctor next Thursday and back to Mascorro the week after that. I can't to see the girls 3 times a month now! I definitely won't get sick of that but I might get sick of the Dr.'s office. I am also getting really excited for my first baby shower!!! I am blessed with the greatest friends and family and I know it is going to be great! 

Well, the only other big thing going on in our world right now is house hunting. We couldn't decide if we should move or not (and to be honest I'm still not convinced) but we are trying to find a bigger yet affordable rent house. We saw one yesterday that we like. The master is a little on the small side and we would have to buy a washer and dryer. Jason was sure this was the house until it dawned on him that there was no fireplace... because that should be a deal breaker. haha. We are going to look at another house today on our lunch break so we shall see. 

Now for the few people that read my blog and have their own.... POST!!! Some of you have been major slackers! Love you

2008 is coming to an end!

Wow! This has been a very eventful year... Tim & Melaina got married, Aubrie and Makayla were born, Connor was born, my parents celebrated 30 years married, Lainey was born, we found out we were expecting, we found out we were expecting TWINS, our one year anniversary, Gabriel was born, Shelby and Nate got engaged, we found out the twins are GIRLS, and I graduated. I'm sure I have left out some things but WOW!! 

We had a very blessed Christmas with both families. I love spending time with everyone. I got to spend a week in Oklahoma with Jen & Melaina and then went to Fort Worth for 4 days to see the rest of the family. It is always so much fun when we can all get together. By the end of our vacation, I was definitely ready to be at my own home but leaving Fort Worth always makes me very sad. While I did want to come home, I just want our home to be in Fort Worth! I just knew that I would be moving back sometime around now and for obvious reasons that isn't a possibility right now. I don't know when we will be able to move and it really gets me down when I think about it. I don't like to admit it but I am so scared about having the twins! I'm not sure why God thought that I could handle it! I don't want to sound like I'm over-reacting because so far they are healthy and I am very thankful. But I just don't have the support system that I need in Abilene. I have so many amazing family members and friends in the Fort Worth area that I need now more than ever. Oh well! I know things will end up working out because they always do. 

I hope everyone has had a great holiday season and I'll post again in the new year!

Two healthy baby GIRLS!!

I still think I'm in shock. I just knew we were going to have at LEAST one boy. I had convinced myself of it but nope! It has been triple verified. We have two beautiful baby girls on the way. We are so excited and cannot wait to start getting things in order. We also find out the we have a c-section date set already. We went to the doctor this morning and she let us know she went ahead and set a date for a c-section. She said it didn't mean we had to have a c-section but she didn't want to fight for a OR. So the twins arrival date (unless they come earlier) is.... APRIL 14TH! It is absolutely surreal to have a definite date. It is coming so fast and we aren't even close to ready. So our beautiful girls will be here in 4 months...at the very latest! That is insane! I already have so many cute things for them and can't wait to get me. 

I also graduated on Friday!! It feels so great to be done and before the babies are here makes it even better. I felt like I would never finish and then all the sudden it's over! I had the best time with all my wonderful family and friends that came in. I am blessed to have some of the best friends! Well, I'm going to try and update this more and all add pictures later. Have a great week! 

One girl and one ...

Well, we definitely have one girl!! Baby A is definitely a girl but Baby B is always a little tricky to get a picture of. Baby B is behind Baby A so we never get very good pictures. The Dr. guessed that B is also a girl but I'm not so sure. She didn't get a good view at all so we order Intelligender. The test isn't 100% accurate but it said BOY! We will be so excited no matter what Baby B is but I am kind of hoping for a boy. Jason is dying for a little boy and I want that for him so bad! However, thanks to Jen and Meredith, we will have lots of gifts for 2 little girls. They didn't listen to me when I said that the Dr. said not to buy anything yet and they have been buying my girls gifts like crazy! So, they are especially hoping for another girl! We will hopefully know for sure on December 11th so I'll let y'all know then!! 

It's been a while!

Well, I haven't written a post in a while so I figure why not. I will do anything to put off doing my homework. Things have been going pretty well around here. A few weeks ago I was having a few breakdowns a week and decided the best thing for my marriage, the twins, and me would be to work a lot less during my last month of school. I have been working 10-15 hours a week and it has made a HUGE difference. I'm not really doing more school work with my time (which is what I need to be doing) but I'm getting a lot of much needed sleep. There were 2 nights last week that I fell asleep at 7 and only woke up when Jason woke me up to make sure I took my medicine... what a great husband. 

This weekend Jason went hunting in Kansas with Kallen. It was suppose to be a weekend for me to get a lot of school work done but it has ended up with me doing a lot of sleeping and a little school work. I also spent 4 hours at a spa redeeming a spa package my husband got me!! When I was there the lady told me she remembered my husband and he told her how I was pregnant with twins, going to school, and working and that I deserved something special! It made me feel really good. He did spend a lot of money that I wouldn't have ever spent but I did need it and it was very much appreciated! 

I am growing!! I still haven't gained any weight which is really bothering me but Jason and I can tell a huge difference! I would just feel better if I were gaining weight so I knew that I was doing everything right for the twins. We also noticed last Wednesday that my ab muscles have already split. I didn't think that happened so early and according to Jen it doesn't!! She has let me know that this isn't a good thing for me and that I will need her large maternity clothes!! Hahaha! Oh well! As long as the babies are growing big and strong I will love getting HUGE

Well, I'm hoping my next blog will be me writing about our appointment and letting all of you (like anyone actually reads this) know what the babies sexes are!! I'm so excited to find out and I will be so sad if we can't. So everybody keep your fingers crossed that on November 17th the babies will be cooperating and we will know what they are!!

A lovely Sunday afternoon

I'm just sitting on the couch next to Jason watching the football game and I decided to write a post in efforts of putting off cleaning. Things are GREAT right now. Jason and I had some bad feelings about the babies. We both felt like something just wasn't right. I called the Dr. to express my concerns and they got me in the next day! I have never been so nervous at an appointment before in my life. I almost stopped her from doing the sonogram because I wasn't prepared to hear the bad news. She went ahead and we saw both beautiful babies and heard both very strong heartbeats!! I have never felt so good in my entire life. Baby A is 4.4ish centimeters long and the heartbeat was 171. Baby B is 4.76 centimeters and that heartbeat was 169. She scheduled another appointment 2 weeks out (October 29th). She didn't say why but I can imagine it's because she knows I'm such a psycho worrier. We got to ask a ton of questions. Some of which we were happy with the answers and others that we are going to learn to see the positive. One of those things is that she said I have less than a 25% chance of delivering vaginally. I SOOOO don't want a c-section but there are a lot of upsides to it as well. So I'm dealing with it. However, my Dr. is going to make sure that I only have a c-section if it is absolutely necessary. I'm going to try and get some pictures up later.