June 28, 2009

Videos... finally!

These are old but I just figured this whole thing out!

This is Ansley

And now Kinley

June 18, 2009

3 months & our first sickness

Kinley - March 12, 2009

Kinley @ 3 months

Ansley - March 12, 2009

Ansley @ 3 months

Well we have made it to 3 months and what a difference from the day they were born!! I am the mother of two 3 month old babies... CRAZY!! At 3 months (actually a little before) Kinley weighed 8 lbs and Ansley was 8 lbs 10 ounces. I'm about to have a 10 lb baby. It felt like that would never happen. They are very hard work but SO sweet. This week they got their first cold right along with me. Luckily, LaGay had already planned to be here this week. Talk about good timing. She was so much help. I will say that I will be thankful when I can stop putting saline drops and suctioning their nose. Man, do they hate that. 

I am contemplating starting a weekly post called "Fast forward to Friday". I'm hoping it will make me post more and I will be able to journal about our weeks which will help me remember all the sweet things the girls will start doing. Let me know what you think.

June 4, 2009

Guilt & decisions...

that come with being a mom. So I have been trying so hard to breast-feed the girls. I want so bad for this to work. My whole life I
have had these expectations of pregnancy and raising my kids. Well, as most of you know my idea of having a completely natural 
labor went out the window very early. Now I feel like breast-feeding is going to be taken away too. I have finally got to the point
that I can tandem (at the same time) feed the girls and everything has seemed like it was going pretty good. Ansley does really well
but I am still having a lot of pain from Kinley's latch. I also was feeling like their weight gain had slowed down. I decided to make
my 2nd appointment with the lactation consultant to see if my intuition was right. Sure enough it was! On May 15th Kinley weighed
6 lbs 11 ounces and Ansley 7 lbs 6 ounces. The VERY minimum they should have gained from then was 9 ounces. Well Kinley was
only 7 lbs 1 ounces (she gained 6 ounces) and Ansley was 7 lbs 15 ounces (so she gained 9 ounces). They were gain more than an
ounce a day. I knew it would slow down because I stopped giving them formula but this was unexpected. The girls have also been
crying A LOT! I have been going crazy thinking that they were just hard babies. Well... come to find out I'm starving them! I feel
awful. Of course they cry all the time. They are always hungry. Needless to say, I left the Lactation consultant and cried the rest
of the day. I have never felt so much guilt.

Now for the decisions. The LC is having me put the girls to the breast every time they cry and wants me to try and feed them
one at a time in hopes that me giving more attention will help them eat better (Oh because we weighed them before and after
they ate and they only got 1 ounce and 2 ounces). Then I go back tomorrow to do a weight check and again on Tuesday. I want
this to work but if I'm feeding 2 babies every time they cry I might as well set up shop on the couch and get ready to listen to
crying all day because all I will be doing is breast-feeding. The whole reason I started feeding them together was because it
takes a whole lot less time and I was sick of having the baby that wasn't eating screaming at me the whole time her sister ate.
So, what do I do? Keep trying and be stressed, completely switch to formula and be stressed, or let one baby breast-feed and
bottle feed the other and then switch the next time. The last option sounds good but I think it will put them on completely
different schedules because formula holds them over so much longer. *Sigh*

Ok vent over. I keep trying to post videos of the girls but it won't work! I have a Macbook and the videos are uploaded to IMovie.
Any advice on getting it to work. Thanks!