So I have been in the hospital for 2 1/2 weeks! I am beyond excited/relieved that my girls are still tucked away safely in my tummy but AAAHHH!!! I feel like I'm going crazy. I just need to keep repeating, "I think I can. I think I can." I will be 28 weeks on Sunday and that is such a milestone and when I have 2 beautiful, healthy girls I know I will never think twice about my stay in the hospital.
Throughout this whole thing, the fact that Jason and I have the best friends and family has just been reiterated over and over again. We have had so many visitors. I'm actually going to do my best to name them all so that I will have documentation of it. So far we have had... My mom & dad, his mom & dad, Jamie, Geoff, Jana, Justin, Jen, Josh, Ty, Bryce, Lainey, Tim, Melaina, Randall, Celice, Granny, Granddad, Meredith, Makayla, Mitzi, Margaret, Michael, Kara, 4 0f my co-workers (Elizabeth, Megan, Adam, & Anne), my boss (Michael), Russ, Susan, Chris, Jim, the parents of Marla Myers (from our church in Abilene), Vicki, Mark, Jane, Sarah, Brittney, Kevin, Susan, Kayla, Kristen, Aunt Debbie, Aunt Carla, Aunt Nina, Aunt Beverley, Amanda, Amanda, Stephanie, Mallory, Sharla, Blake, Anna, Keith, Cynthia, Steven, Britini, Faith, Shanda, Jimma, Barbara, Karen, Caleb, Jennie, Reese, & Aubrie. I really hope I have remembered everyone and I'm sorry I put you through that! But it does make me feel better to have it down somewhere. ANYWAY... the point is we are obviously blessed!
I am even more blessed than Jason though. He is the most AMAZING husband. This has definitely been one of the first big, life-changing things that has happened to him and we were totally taken off guard. Imagine hearing the words, "If they are born, they won't survive." or "There is a high-risk of brain hemorrhaging that could cause cerebral palsy or life-long seizure disorders." We have never been so scared and there is no one other than Jason that I could do this with. He has been so incredibly supportive and strong. I can just look at him and feel just a little bit better every time! As most of you know, we had moved into a new house the day before I was admitted and he has spent all of his free time in Abilene getting it together. He has even decorated a lot of it for me and tonight he spent his time painting our girls' room and putting up trim. He is soooo great!! He is spending Sunday-Wednesday in Abilene going into work early and leaving late and then travels to Fort Worth to stay on an uncomfortable couch next to me in the hospital. I am so grateful that God gave him to me and I love him more than I could ever imagine.
We are both just ready for this all to be over and for our lives to go back to normal. Even though, our normal will never be the same. We are just ready to live in the same house with our beautiful girls. Please continue all of your prayers and know that we are so thankful for that and you. Hopefully, I'll post sooner next time! Until then, I'll just be laying in bed at the hopsital!
